almost 2 weeks of moving states, and moving in with Lisa and her fiancé. I'm grateful that they are letting me stay with them for the foreseeable future while I transition to my new job. It hasn't been without some discomfort, as I made the difficult decision with my BF still staying behind for his job. Its been an emotional roller coaster....we thought about separating for now, then we changed our minds, then we said, we would try the distance thing. We had a massive fight last week over one of my NN posts, which I've subsequently taken down. We made up, and NN is now one way we are keeping the spice up. He's following my posts, and suggesting things to post too. He's a bit more...forward..i guess is the word? I'm not nearly as daring as he wants me to be, but we'll see how it all goes.

After having the night to calm down, I'm ashamed about some of my behavior after the big fight with the BF. I shouldn't have gone with emotion to post a video with a dick just to piss him off further. In my defense, he knows Lisacums and he knows that I have played with her man, and still do (although rare when we moved to another state for a while). I guess, it wasn't exactly the act that pissed him off, it was that I chose to post a picture. He'd have rather I posted one with his dick. I can't really say I agree, but after we both calmed down a bit more, we are in an improved spot.

I get that I'm new here, and maybe this is negative for me, and I get that some of you don't even care as long as I post naked pics. I do want to thank the people that were helpful, like explaining I could delete the vid. This is a nice, fun site, and there's good fun people here.

My BF was supportive of me starting this NN account when I moved in with Lisa last week. I lost a bet with her, and to push my boldness, she made me post a BJ pic with her BF. I mean, I was terrified of posting that subject, but I also know she meant well. My BF also knows I’ve slept with Lisa’s BF in the past, so I guess I wasn’t thinking.

Well, the pic gets posted and he just goes ballistic on me. We had a really bad two hour fight tonight and I think I overreacted afterwards by posting a video with a dick. It was all to spite him and show him I didn’t care to be controlled but now I’m regretting it. I do care for him and purposely doing this really isn’t who I am. I’m not a spiteful person. On top of that, my impulsive act now probably hurts myself. I didn’t want a BJ pic with me on the web. And now I don’t want a video too. I’m really confused and frankly terrified. Lisa says I should go to sleep and tomorrow we will all be fine. I don’t know.