The poor boy is horny
There's a question thorny
To fap and blow it all
Or sit and await her call
The plan is made
He's going to get laid
Alas not so, cancel she does
It's enough to kill a good buzz
Four hours later and still no fuck
The poor boy is down on his luck
Takes matters into his hand
My doesn’t bustin’ feel grand

Tears came down like rain
Washed away all the pain
Now I clearly see
What you meant to me
Words were spoken
That left hearts broken
It’s your simple touch
Shows our friendship means so much
At times I forgot to show
I hope my love you know
On this, you can depend
Well be friends to the end
Words can’t express what I want to say
But perhaps there is one way
For the only words that'll do
Are I love you

I identify as bi. I prefer ambisexual, which once was used, to bisexual. Ambi means on both sides. Like ambidextrous where you don't have a dominant hand, ambisexuals, in general, don't have a dominant sexual preference. They like both. NOw having said that people are different and don't think you can cay 100 percent of any group is such and such. Therefore I will only talk about myself.

In grade school, I had crushes on both boys and girls. To me this was normal. AS I got older I found I was attracted to both men and women. Again this seemed normal to me. When I joined the Air Force in 1979 they had a test for homosexuality. It was the question do you like women. I thought shit anyone can answer yes to that even if it's just their other they like. Naturally, liking both I said yes. Seemed like a weak attempt to keep gay men out of the military. Although I just say they did care about females as a friend I was stationed with was kick out for being a lesbian. I mention all this because I am sure that there were gay men in the military. Being bi that didn't bother me. It was the straight boys you had to look out for. One time a straight guy flashed his cock at me. Not sure why. Maybe he thought I wasn't straight, which is true but I'm not gay.

I for a long time had trouble not understanding why men didn't find other men attractive? It took time for me to realize that most men are straight and aren't wired to other men as attractive. To me, when it comes to a preference for love and sex, heterosexual means a preference for members of the opposite sex. Homosexual means a preference for members of the same sex Bisexual means no preference for either sex.

I wondered at times how a bisexual could be married to a member of one sex and still have feelings for the other sex. Then realized it is just like a straight or same-sex marriage. Just because you're on a diet doesn't mean you can' look in the candy shop window. There can be a problem if one of the partners is monogamous and the other is not and that one let's say strays. I should say I don't get monogamy either. I am poly. But to each their own.

Bi-curious is something that I find can be interesting. I have observed there are men that would not mind getting their cock sucked by another man or even sucking a cock. That however seems to be the limit. By that, I mean not kissing and no emotional attachment. Now with women, it's ok to find not only other women attractive but to kiss and have sex. This is not called bi-curious. Just experimenting in college. LOL. Or kissing to drive the men wild.

Being the way I am I have never seen the attraction to women kissing each other. After all, a kiss is just a kiss. If there is going to be more than missing then I am interested. Yeah, I like to watch. I think that one reason women are able to be so flexible sexually is that for a long time women were thought not to be interested in sex. Sex was for the menfolk as they could understand it with manly men brains. s/k. That is a whole other barrel of monkeys.

Sometimes it's hard to be in a heteronormative world. You are subtle told en like women and women like men. There are no men liking men or women liking women much less liking both women and men. I am not sure if there is an undercurrent that you just don't like both as I have no fucks to give in that area. I have said for years it's not just that I'm marching to the beat of a different drummer I'm in a whole different parade. I just am who I am and I'm comfortable with that. Normal can just fuck right off.

This has been a bit of a stream of consciousness piece, but this is how I think. This is just a way for me to get thoughts out of my head rather than profound writing.

Who do I need to be
For you to love me
Where do I need to go
What do I need to know

What do I need to do
Just to get next to you
What do you need to feel
Before you return my love for real

I have tried to do it all
Taken every step large and small
But it never seems enough
Can it really be that tough

Don’t you realize
You’re the love in my eyes
Oh why can’t you see
What this is doing to me

I gave you my heart
You tore it apart
I dried your tears
Eased your fears

You only gave me pain
Wrapped my heart in a chain
Just so you know
I’m letting you go

It’s time for me
To break free
Who do I need to be
For you to love me

I was an unusual child. I didn't buy the big boys don't cry lie. So I cried. I was most happy alone. So not many friends. I didn't feel one's sex limited who you could love. I believed in the equality of the sexes. I even wrote a poem about that in seventh grade English class. The teacher played Simon and Garfunkel records in class. She was in the vernacular of the day, cool. To this day I still love Simon and Garfunkel not records but CDs. Although it seems very thing old is new again with vinyl making a come back.

I remember being ten and wanting to be ten forever I thought it was the perfect age. Alas, I'm no longer ten.

I am shy and as a kid, I would have my younger brother speak for me. In my senior year, I had a free period no class. The first day I realized I would be bored doing nothing. I went into the library and asked the librarian if I could work in the library. We moved in the summer so this was a new school. I explained that I had worked in the library at my previous high school. It took a lot for me to do this. But it was the most amazing year working in the library. When I graduated the librarian gave me a copy of the Tao Te Ching. She said I had catholic tastes. It was then I learned catholic meant universal. The Roman Catholic Church was the universal Christian church until the Reformation. Of course, it took time for the church to emerge from the various schools of belief in the first few centuries of the Common Era.

The reaction that people have to religion, sex, and politics fascinate me. So, yeah I have catholic interests.