So yeah, I used to be skinny, but before I was skinny I was bigger, and before I was bigger then, I was skinny before that too. Now I am bigger again, but there is a reason I'll never be skinny and "sexy" again. Other than my Ehlers Danlos and the obvious issues it has given me physically with pain and mobility.
So here is your sexy girl with no makeup, just standing there, taking a full body shot.
[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/adf7dd6a.jpg[/IMG]
It looks different when bent over or crumpled up or sitting or from another angle, but from this angle, so dead on, I find it pretty honest.
[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/3557b0b2.jpg[/IMG]
Likewise this, although too big for some of you and just fine for others, it's pretty honest. I don't like how big I am here, I don't think it looks as good as I could look, but I think now, in retrospect it looks better than the previous picture.
[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/0fbcbaf0.jpg[/IMG]
There really was nothing to me. I was about dead, honestly.
[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/da9ad741.jpg[/IMG]
By comparison, no matter how frumpy my body looks big, I have to like myself more now, because I freaking hated myself when I only ate about a slice of bread every day.

And that is the truth of that.

So I wanted to show my art. At least one piece that I am proud of. Here is a close up of the piece, just to give you an idea that it is actually created by me (visible brush strokes, imperfections) and not a photo manipulation.

[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/clipofkunikopainting2.jpg[/IMG]

But here is the whole thing.

[IMG]http://i417.photobucket.com/albums/pp253/raradolly/kunikopaintingdoneex-1.jpg[/IMG]

So this girl, she's a frequent character in my dreams. I refer to her as Kuniko, but that's not the name she says she has in dreams. Anyhow, she's usually building some kind of computer or robot even, and she collects perfume bottles. Her father is a Scientist and her mother a hair dresser that really likes interior decorating. I know it's weird, but all of that is in my dreams of her. I recently had a dream of her where she had brown hair, not blonde like usual. The "window" and the tree are supposed to look fake, but real, or coming alive. Whatever you do, don't tell me that the fish look like Lisa Frank fish, or I'll eat your face off. This painting took about two months to finish, and over a hundred hours. If you printed it out at its highest resolution, it would be absolutely huge.