Hi All.

I see its been quite some time since I updated everyone on whats been going on in my world of "horses"

Well, I'm still buying and selling...yup, still at 4 (or back up to 4) horses.

I managed to score 2 free babies, one's father is worth over a million alone so I'm getting this girl appraised...I'll always have my main 2 horses...my show horses, but I'm contiplating on keeping the one baby still...

My back is still doing the same "give out on ya when you need a break" and it sucks...Drs still can't find the cause, but they told me to go ahead and ride my horses all I want...can anyone say show season this spring?? lol

Havent been doing much else...was dating someone but he broke my stupid heart (like many other men have) and I guess I've come to the conclusion that single may be the way to be...I dunno.

I havent been happy with anyone in such a long time...

Quote of the day "he may hit a rail, but he won't break my heart"
(I love my horse)

ttys!

Brat is alive...and well.
Ok so my back isnt getting better...shoulder is toast. All good, put some butter on it and keep going right?
Bought and sold a few horses and that is totally cool! Made some decent coin too!
Somehow I've managed to keep the 3 horses I love to death and I'm good with that...but have one of them up for sale still...I know I'll find another one lol
Otherwise, all in all pretty good here...keeping busy (sometimes too busy)
Other interesting things going on but....cant share them here....yet...
TTYS!

Miss you all!

Looking up here...New job...making good coin too
Off to do some horse training...
ttys

So going crazy here...don't know what to do or think...gonna hit the chat room for a bit...my back hurts so bad and I just wanna curl up in someones arms for the night...cant do that one, so im stuck with the cat...ughhh

Hiya all! Yup, Im still alive here...been crazy busy with "new life" (which really isnt so spectacular) lol

Single is the life that sucks, but I'm learning to live with it...was dating someone but...I'm not sure what happened there yet...it sucks.

Been working lots, but threw my back out and low and behold even with Drs notes and letters, they still terminated me (via text message no less) so off to the lawyers I go!! lol My lawyer is eating it up. No notice, Improper firing and oh right, uhmm Doctors notes and letters to back it up...work related injury no less...SUCKERS!!!

New house is awesome too...loving everything about it so far...ok except for the shower spout breaking off and the snow shovelling...I HATE SNOW!! Dammit.

But the old guy next door figured out I'm a single mom and has been over shovelling my drive while I'm out lol
(he is wayyy old - 70's so NO WAY! lol. Get that thought outta your heads/minds)

I just cant wait til summer...sunbathing in the privacy of my backyard...bbqs etc. woohoo!! hmm thinking hot tub too.
(after my ex boss gets the "youre screwed" hammer slam in court, I'll be able to get one anyways lol)

So yup, all in all, its going ok...
Some things of the past I miss, but life is as it is and I've learnt to deal with it as it comes. I really miss having my dad around...but we are getting on with our lives as he would have wanted. I still visit his grave every day...even in the -22 wind chill...

Anyway, Im gonna try to be online more often...time permitting. Although Im not working right now, I am looking...

TTYS
Mwah!

Well, start the new job tomorrow. Also thinking that 12 hr continental shifts might kill me lol
but its straight days...so I will be blogging when I can.
I thought about my options (see previous blog) and I'm still doing some soul searching. What does the BRAT want?
I'm tired of getting the "hot then cold" off of guys...
I don't know, and rather right now, I'm going to focus all of my attention on ME. My new job and my horse...kids as well, obviously.
Kids are a whole different area (won't blog today about them)
I was talking to my stable owner today, where I board my horse, and I am considering buying another horse. With the pay rate that I am getting, I can easily afford another one...
So we are going searching for that perfect fit for me.
I love my current horse immensly, but another one would be perfect for my daughter to ride with me...
(ok after my mare is broke)
Anyway, off to do some soul searching...
ttys

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!

SEE BELOW BLOG...

TTYS

Well, Monday morning...Just wasting time before my interview for the best paying job I could get right now...heheeee

And to top it off, the weekend was a blast!

Friends took me out to a bar here in town (ok it's every Saturday now that we go) and I did NOT get drunk (unlike what some people are saying that I'm "drinking away my problems" yeah, bite me. I'm not doing that. I go out and have fun.

Anyway, I bumped into an old friend on the patio and the girls told him that he had to dance with me before the night was over...he did. And to top it off it was the song we dedicated to each other back when our feelings were "blossoming". It was sort of ironic in a way...(maybe you had to be there)

Brooks & Dunn and Reba - If you see him, If you see her (Country) The song describes us very very well and detailed.

It was cool to see him after all this time...and the feelings are still there for him and vice versa...

We didn't date back then over other issues (both not ready to be in a relationship at the time)

He drove me home, we talked for hours about what we've been up to, past relationships (recent ones) etc...and then I got the "well, if you're single, do you think we could start off slow" speach...hahahaha I love that speach.

So I explained to him three things:

1. I promised someone that I would give him time to figure shit out. I'm not getting any answers, so I'm thinking its time to move on...

2. I have an interest in someone else, but at this time, I'm not sure where it would go as there is some huge distance issues I'm concerned about.

3. I'm scared as hell to get hurt again...I'm tired of broken hearts, broken promises and shattered dreams.

So, what to do?

My friends are telling me that #1 and #2 need to be put in my past and move forward...#3 will always be there and I will have to work thru it...

What does everyone think?
I don't want to hurt anyone here...
Are my friends right?
Should I try things with this guy?

I mean, yes, the feelings are there, yes, we get along like best friends, yes, he is supportive of the kids, great job, house, car etc etc...

Hmmm, I see the pros and can't find the cons right now with him.

Anyway, tree planting memorial went over well. We planted a Hemlock for him. The service was short and very well put together. I spoke to the funeral director that did Dad's service, he remembered the family and was amazed that my mom has held it together...then he thanked me for keeping her going.
I'm known as the family rock...

Ok, I gotta get my butt in gear...I have a 35 minute drive to the interview...PS> It's the 2nd interview for this job...

woohooo, wish me luck...

TTYS mwah

~Brat~

Hey all;
Yup, still kicking here...Well tomorrow is my Dad's tree planting/Memorial...Sure wish I had a hand to hold thru it. (
All the memories are flooding back and it hurts like hell again. Dad's birthday is next weekend too, and man, we miss him like hell here.
I've gotten thru my depression and I'm sleeping a bit better at night. Guess I've gotten used to being alone.
Have a new job interview on Monday...tons of money and straight hours finally. Yay me...maybe.
The packing is going...as per usual. Hoping to start moving stuff over soon as possible tho. Possession is December 1st. I can't wait! I soo want to get at the yard tho now. Holy freaking weeds and the gardens are shot lol
Ah well, teenage years are going well...surprisinly. My son has been having "spells" at school with violent tendencies, but we have worked them out...we will see the behaviouralist Monday as well. Wow, I have a busy Monday! Shoot. lol
Anyway, I'm around...still breathing (which is a good thing) and still having my "moments" with other stuff...
Pup is doing well, she is on medical hold and remaining at my house for a bit longer to make sure she is strong enough to make it thru sugery...then she will be placed into a new home. Gonna miss that little bugger when/if she goes.
Anyway again, I'm outta here for a bit...
Luv ya all,
~Brat~

Well, my daughter is officially a teenager...ugh..13!
I wanna blog something that happened tonight, but I cant I'm soo frustrated with it.
My son, who is 6, has been in 3 fights in 3 days...meetings with principals, teachers and now specialists...damn.
All in all, pretty uneventful week...weekend was great tho
Pup is doing good...we lined up a new adoptive home for her (she is a rescue..I'm fostering her) but she wont go to the new home until surgery is over and she is better. Fingers crossed.
Well, Im off, Im frustrated (in more ways than one) and I should just go to bed...
Miss ya all.
Mwah