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so as a few of my true friends know i was supposed to have a date on saturday, well its officially thursday at 8 p.m. and she just officially canceled our date. just goes to prove i am right that i am a loser and dont deserve anyone and will never be happy..

lately with my whole bank issues its been depressing for me cuz its also the holidays for me and i have always been single around this time. i always see the people who have a gf or bf and it makes me just sad because everyone says i am such a nice, semi-attractive, nice spirited guy then why cant i even get a girl in real life to notice me??

NAILED THE JOB INTERVIEW AND START IN 2 WEEKS!!!!

so i got a job interview soon its a job i went to school for so i hope i can get back into it cuz i spent 2 years gettting the college education. please wish me luck.

when i first started here and was always getting hit on my gay guys i didnt know what to really say i mean should i be thankful or disgusted or what? but now i realize oh my god i turn on men,shoot, you women better show some respect because I HAVE OPTIONS

i am done sitting silent in the chat rooms from now on. i have been sitting silently for awhile now and if people dont like who or what i have become they can kiss where the sun dont shine cuz i could care less from now on. and if you dont like my pics, blog, or status then mind your own fucking bussiness cuz i dont care anymore.

some days it seems like you are the shoulder to cry on and some days it seems you need a shoulder to cry on, lately it seems i need one to cry on but i have to be the one everyone uses. when will someone please let me rant without sounding like i dont care.

i am done caring what people think of me
i am done caring more for other people than i care for myself
i am done sacrificing what i love in life to make others lives better
i am done with doing stuff for others when no one does anything for me
and i am done with this blog.

lately i have been thinking about some somewhat serious stuff in my life. ever since i have been on here i have constantly asked myself why people on here are friends to me and for the most part i cant understand why. i have asked a few people and most of the answers are the same. my biggest problem right now is that when i say or do something in the rooms or the forums and its not what others want to hear they all freak out cuz i am supposed to be ''that nice person'' who doesnt stand up for himself or anyone and its starting to bother me that i cant say anything without anyone defending me but taking the side of other people.

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one of if not my favorite songs of all time is by kid rock titled only god knows why. for some reason everytime i hear it, it just seems to fit so well with my life about the people and shit i have dealt with all my life. my favorite line is "You get what you put in, and people get what they deserve. Still I ain't seen mine." Seems like everything i put into my life and making sure i am happy and everything nothing has happened. Makes me question my life and the choices i have made lately whether they were the right ones or maybe i am just struggling to keep myself the way i am.