I havent blogged since before valentines day....I've been busy since then lol I have met a new guy....who is amazing I really like spending time with him...he makes me so happy I dont see him enough though lol We live 30 minutes apart and work two different schedules...he works evenings and I mostly work mornings...but we make it work...I usually only get weekends with him but I'm going to see him tomorrow YAY!! I cant wait. I love sleeping in his arms

As valentines day approaches, all you see are the I love you cards and the chocolates and the flowers...Why do we need a commercialized day to show our true feelings? Why does it only have to be once a year? Personally, I don't believe in this holiday. Yes a woman that doesn't give in to the hype. I want a man to tell me he loves me everyday and to actually mean it. Don't use it to get laid. Trust me if you want some ass be straight forward with it. You might get lucky. I want to be appreciated. I want to know that no one else makes you smile like I do. I need to know I matter. I want to be the one that makes your world go around. I want the same RESPECT I give you. Respect and trust are two of the most important things in any relationship. Don't lie to me. If you need to lie about something then you shouldn't have done it.
I may seem jaded and maybe I am. I've been done wrong to many times. I have trust issues. I don't let people in. When I do and you abuse my trust, it makes my walls go higher. The only person I can completely trust is myself. I guard my heart like it's a precious gem.
Ok for a blog where all I was gonna do is link a song and put the lyrics up, I turned it into a rant. lol Sometimes you just gotta let it all out. Btw I love this song. I'm not normally a Slipknot fan BUT this song speaks to me.
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghql15DhgaE[/url]
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart... when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint...
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control...
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know...

why cant some people(men especially) be who they really are? Why put on a front? Why make things up to sound better? oh grrrr I give up!

I got out of the house today....alas it was to go to work...but I still got outta the house...that makes me super excited lol

my new boots shipped today...yay i should have them soon. *dances* unfortunately i am stuck in the house I cant go anywhere...just melt ice damnit. Its so bad that I wouldnt even mind going to work just to get out lol

I'm going to see my favorite band on the 16th of feb....That would be Cold So I decided I needed to educate myself on the other bands that are with them.....surprisingly I've heard two of the others but didnt know it lol But ive found a few songs I like that I think you all should hear

[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWIk3aqGMEM&feature=related[/url]
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihYwcaxEEUk&feature=related[/url]
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBEkmBZayAQ&feature=related[/url]
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaEQ6_oAP6s&feature=related[/url]
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nXuRIJp5iIc[/url]
and last but not least COLD
[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkbQDChgmX8[/url]

the things I'd do to this man

two new pair of boots today and I want them now! lol Damnit why did I have to buy online??? lol wanna see em??






I want em!! I want em!! I want em!!! I want em!!!! I want em!!!!! *stomps feet* hmm I dont think it worked lol

[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Onw0OtYNpq8[/url]

I haven't updated in awhile....just haven't felt like blogging....apparently something is wrong with me lol Oh well sometimes we all have to take a step back and explore the outside world some lol As much as I do love yall...I needed a little break I guess

I'm getting a new tattoo YAY I'm super excited I'm getting a rosary around my ankle in memory of my grandfather. I've wanted something in memory of him for awhile. I just couldnt decide what I wanted But I've got it figured out now

Merry Christmas everyone